“Moga kita tak terleka dalam perjalanan ini”
Its been awhile since I've blogged.
Today, I woke up and I feel like, I want to blog about this.
Assalamualaikum & hello to my readers ! (Ada ke readers... I know theres only one loyal reader 🙈) Anyways... This post is going to be something really personal that I'd love to share with all of you.
How I start with my “penghijrahan” or I would say my new journey by covering up myself. These past few months, I caught myself more interested seeing women / girls that cover up themselves then those usual I always look up online (Do I sound like a stalker ?!) Hahaha what I meant was, whenever I want to look for something to wear or some inspirations for my outfit, I tend to go for clothing that I felt I can look modest in it.
So, how do I begin my journey ? Slowly. Yes. I start slow. And I am still learning. I started to feel uncomfortable to wear my dress. I started to avoid wearing tight outfit. And begin to feel more comfortable wearing something loose. Then, I asked myself, so whats next ? When will I start to cover up myself fully ? As in, when will I want to start wearing my tudung / hijab ? “Soon”, I told myself.
I began to read blogs about people going into this new journey, seek advice from friends that closed to me. One of them told me that if I dah feel like want to wear it, I should just go for it cause if want to wait I'm fully ready, it will never be. Again, I have set my own time, told myself that I will be start wearing it during Ramadan.
Seems like Allah wants me to get closer to Him soon. He gave me challenges that I never saw it coming. Allah knows I can handle it, thats why He put me through it. It is for me to be a better person. To be a better Muslimah, Insyaallah. I remember theres this one time when I prayed, I cried and asked for his guidance, I asked him to help me to be better. I asked him to show me something.
“Allahu Akbar = Allah is great”.
He gives you guidance (hidayah) in so many ways... One of the ways that he gave me is through losing something that I thought I can never imagine losing.
One of my friend told me that I should feel lucky because He have chose me to get the Hidayah from Him, cause not everyone will easily get that from Him. I felt so thankful and blessed to know that. I told myself that, this is it. I should not waste my time anymore, I've always ask things from Him but why I can't even do this one thing for Him ? I felt so ashamed. All these while, I have not put Him first. I neglect my prayers. I am too “busy” with the unnecessary things in life. And He have already answered my prayers, so what else should I be waiting for ? He already blessed me with so many things when I didn't really obey His words, just imagined how many more things He can blessed me with if I start obeying Him by covering up myself and devote myself fully to Him. And for me to ask for a better person to be with, I reflect myself, am I that good enough to ask for that better someone ? I want to better in Allah eyes first before I deserve to be with anyone that I feel I deserve to be with.
The more I get closer to Him, the more peaceful my heart is. The more I understand why He wants me to feel the loss. Because He miss me. He miss my doas, He miss my prayers. He wants me to get more closer to Him. So I shall. And I know and believe that, He have something great for me in the future.
Trust me. When you get closer to Him, you will feel peaceful. Your heart will feel ease. And the moment I start covering myself up, I feel so safe, so protected. I feel that I have make Him proud of me. Like I've said, I'm still learning. With the support from family and friends (you know who you are ! ;) ) I couldn't be more thankful and blessed.
So to you, if you feel the loss in your life, please bear in mind that, everything happens for a reason. He wants to save your heart from pain and heartache. He wants you to give all of you to Him instead of people. He will never break your heart, instead He will heal it and Insyaallah will make you a much better stronger person. I am only a human. Of course, its not easy at times, but I keep remind myself that Allah is with me, I shall not worry.
The reason why I post this is because I just feel like sharing my new journey, mind you again that, I am still learning as I just started and Insyaallah we all can be better too. You can always start slow :) And ALWAYS have faith in Allah's plan for you. He knows whats the best for you. If you ever feel down, grab your sejadah and starts praying. He will have the answers to every questions that been bothering your mind. I am reminding you as a reminder for myself too :)
May Allah ease everything. Amin.
Its been awhile since I've blogged.
Today, I woke up and I feel like, I want to blog about this.
Assalamualaikum & hello to my readers ! (Ada ke readers... I know theres only one loyal reader 🙈) Anyways... This post is going to be something really personal that I'd love to share with all of you.
How I start with my “penghijrahan” or I would say my new journey by covering up myself. These past few months, I caught myself more interested seeing women / girls that cover up themselves then those usual I always look up online (Do I sound like a stalker ?!) Hahaha what I meant was, whenever I want to look for something to wear or some inspirations for my outfit, I tend to go for clothing that I felt I can look modest in it.
So, how do I begin my journey ? Slowly. Yes. I start slow. And I am still learning. I started to feel uncomfortable to wear my dress. I started to avoid wearing tight outfit. And begin to feel more comfortable wearing something loose. Then, I asked myself, so whats next ? When will I start to cover up myself fully ? As in, when will I want to start wearing my tudung / hijab ? “Soon”, I told myself.
I began to read blogs about people going into this new journey, seek advice from friends that closed to me. One of them told me that if I dah feel like want to wear it, I should just go for it cause if want to wait I'm fully ready, it will never be. Again, I have set my own time, told myself that I will be start wearing it during Ramadan.
Seems like Allah wants me to get closer to Him soon. He gave me challenges that I never saw it coming. Allah knows I can handle it, thats why He put me through it. It is for me to be a better person. To be a better Muslimah, Insyaallah. I remember theres this one time when I prayed, I cried and asked for his guidance, I asked him to help me to be better. I asked him to show me something.
“Allahu Akbar = Allah is great”.
He gives you guidance (hidayah) in so many ways... One of the ways that he gave me is through losing something that I thought I can never imagine losing.
One of my friend told me that I should feel lucky because He have chose me to get the Hidayah from Him, cause not everyone will easily get that from Him. I felt so thankful and blessed to know that. I told myself that, this is it. I should not waste my time anymore, I've always ask things from Him but why I can't even do this one thing for Him ? I felt so ashamed. All these while, I have not put Him first. I neglect my prayers. I am too “busy” with the unnecessary things in life. And He have already answered my prayers, so what else should I be waiting for ? He already blessed me with so many things when I didn't really obey His words, just imagined how many more things He can blessed me with if I start obeying Him by covering up myself and devote myself fully to Him. And for me to ask for a better person to be with, I reflect myself, am I that good enough to ask for that better someone ? I want to better in Allah eyes first before I deserve to be with anyone that I feel I deserve to be with.
The more I get closer to Him, the more peaceful my heart is. The more I understand why He wants me to feel the loss. Because He miss me. He miss my doas, He miss my prayers. He wants me to get more closer to Him. So I shall. And I know and believe that, He have something great for me in the future.
Trust me. When you get closer to Him, you will feel peaceful. Your heart will feel ease. And the moment I start covering myself up, I feel so safe, so protected. I feel that I have make Him proud of me. Like I've said, I'm still learning. With the support from family and friends (you know who you are ! ;) ) I couldn't be more thankful and blessed.
So to you, if you feel the loss in your life, please bear in mind that, everything happens for a reason. He wants to save your heart from pain and heartache. He wants you to give all of you to Him instead of people. He will never break your heart, instead He will heal it and Insyaallah will make you a much better stronger person. I am only a human. Of course, its not easy at times, but I keep remind myself that Allah is with me, I shall not worry.
The reason why I post this is because I just feel like sharing my new journey, mind you again that, I am still learning as I just started and Insyaallah we all can be better too. You can always start slow :) And ALWAYS have faith in Allah's plan for you. He knows whats the best for you. If you ever feel down, grab your sejadah and starts praying. He will have the answers to every questions that been bothering your mind. I am reminding you as a reminder for myself too :)
May Allah ease everything. Amin.
