“Moga kita tak terleka dalam perjalanan ini”

Its been awhile since I've blogged.

Today, I woke up and I feel like, I want to blog about this.

Assalamualaikum & hello to my readers ! (Ada ke readers... I know theres only one loyal reader 🙈) Anyways... This post is going to be something really personal that I'd love to share with all of you.

How I start with my “penghijrahan” or I would say my new journey by covering up myself. These past few months, I caught myself more interested seeing women / girls that cover up themselves then those usual I always look up online (Do I sound like a stalker ?!) Hahaha what I meant was, whenever I want to look for something to wear or some inspirations for my outfit, I tend to go for clothing that I felt I can look modest in it.

So, how do I begin my journey ? Slowly. Yes. I start slow. And I am still learning. I started to feel uncomfortable to wear my dress. I started to avoid wearing tight outfit. And begin to feel more comfortable wearing something loose. Then, I asked myself, so whats next ? When will I start to cover up myself fully ? As in, when will I want to start wearing my tudung / hijab ? “Soon”, I told myself.

I began to read blogs about people going into this new journey, seek advice from friends that closed to me. One of them told me that if I dah feel like want to wear it, I should just go for it cause if want to wait I'm fully ready, it will never be. Again, I have set my own time, told myself that I will be start wearing it during Ramadan.

Seems like Allah wants me to get closer to Him soon. He gave me challenges that I never saw it coming. Allah knows I can handle it, thats why He put me through it. It is for me to be a better person. To be a better Muslimah, Insyaallah. I remember theres this one time when I prayed, I cried and asked for his guidance, I asked him to help me to be better. I asked him to show me something.

“Allahu Akbar = Allah is great”.
He gives you guidance (hidayah) in so many ways... One of the ways that he gave me is through losing something that I thought I can never imagine losing.

One of my friend told me that I should feel lucky because He have chose me to get the Hidayah from Him, cause not everyone will easily get that from Him. I felt so thankful and blessed to know that. I told myself that, this is it. I should not waste my time anymore, I've always ask things from Him but why I can't even do this one thing for Him ? I felt so ashamed. All these while, I have not put Him first. I neglect my prayers. I am too “busy” with the unnecessary things in life. And He have already answered my prayers, so what else should I be waiting for ? He already blessed me with so many things when I didn't really obey His words, just imagined how many more things He can blessed me with if I start obeying Him by covering up myself and devote myself fully to Him. And for me to ask for a better person to be with, I reflect myself, am I that good enough to ask for that better someone ? I want to better in Allah eyes first before I deserve to be with anyone that I feel I deserve to be with.

The more I get closer to Him, the more peaceful my heart is. The more I understand why He wants me to feel the loss. Because He miss me. He miss my doas, He miss my prayers. He wants me to get more closer to Him. So I shall. And I know and believe that, He have something great for me in the future.

Trust me. When you get closer to Him, you will feel peaceful. Your heart will feel ease. And the moment I start covering myself up, I feel so safe, so protected. I feel that I have make Him proud of me. Like I've said, I'm still learning. With the support from family and friends (you know who you are ! ;) ) I couldn't be more thankful and blessed.

So to you, if you feel the loss in your life, please bear in mind that, everything happens for a reason. He wants to save your heart from pain and heartache. He wants you to give all of you to Him instead of people. He will never break your heart, instead He will heal it and Insyaallah will make you a much better stronger person. I am only a human. Of course, its not easy at times, but I keep remind myself that Allah is with me, I shall not worry.

The reason why I post this is because I just feel like sharing my new journey, mind you again that, I am still learning as I just started and Insyaallah we all can be better too. You can always start slow :) And ALWAYS have faith in Allah's plan for you. He knows whats the best for you. If you ever feel down, grab your sejadah and starts praying. He will have the answers to every questions that been bothering your mind. I am reminding you as a reminder for myself too :)
May Allah ease everything. Amin.

Interview probably one of the "scariest" thing you will face in your life. Even if you got all those skills, all those qualities that they are looking for, but your first impression are what caught their eye. These are few styles that I created, mock up magazine style to give you magazine vibe while reading this, and hope can inspire you  =)

I was actually browsing for recipe on the net. And then I stumbled upon Urban Stove.  To those that who are still not familiar with that site, it is actually a site that let you choose your meal that have been prepared by their very own Chef and they will deliver to you the ingredients of the meal that you have chose to your door step.

Before this, the only delivery that we can think of are Pizza / McDonalds. Now, you can even have the ingredients for your cooking waiting in front of your door.

 Mina Rosli, Syaf Othman and Faafirds are few of the names that you will search, watch and subscribe on YouTube to watch either their tutorials / vlogs. Guilty as charged. They each have their own ways to portray their personalities through their videos.

Every girl dream to become a princess. To dress like a princess. We are always mesmerized by their fashion styles. The elegance that they bring in their styles. Tunku Aminah is one of the fashion icon that I looked upon to. This petite princess has developed a style which I'm always envious of.

I am sure by now, everyone must know about her recently collaboration with one of the top designer in Malaysia. I heard about her exclusive collaboration with one of my favorite designer, Jovian Mandagie (imagine two talented people collaborated !) a while back when it was out on social media. And I quickly went to FashionValet & Zalora to checked out the collections. Just what I thought, it is to die for.  If you see the collections, you can really see her personal touch on it, it does really show her demure personality.